suddenly forgot what i wanted to say.

read her reply like 2 times

wanted to rebut her so much

but i can see she is coming from a fren's point of view

and cos of that

i felt that i shouldn't reply her so rudely

and then i remembered someone once told me

i cared too much

so this was actually how it feels like

wanted to tell her that too..

but if i still cared abt how she feels

i couldn't say that

this feeling of everything compress inside me

not rebutting her

like i have lost and lost all my reasoning

lost my pride

theres like so many things i can rebut her

then i realise, regardless of what i say

regardless of what she said

theres always something we can say to defend ourselves

theres no right or wrong

in what ever we said

and its going no where

its only going to hurt our relationship

think this relationship ended.

she wants to correct me

so be it

i think its really my problem

my attitude.

but why be so hard on myself

and want everything to be perfect

why cant u accept who i am?

i need to be strong

why change myself for

for just a few words

of what others had said

why cant u mind ur own business?

its as good as me telling u

not to shout at ur mother.

dun give me stupid answers

and tell me that u wun and wadever bullshit

like wad will remind u to be thrifty

i dun think u have the qualification

to say those stuff to me.

dun tell me stuff like

ppl saying that you u and u will gladly accept it

tell me stupid bullshit

like u dun mind criticisms

when u were god damn offended when the

taxi driver say stuff abt studying hard

either one of the thing ur are saying is bullshit

cos u god damn contradicts yourself

tried very hard not to include pass from the past

but u did

so it made me even more pissed

what i hate abt u the most is that

u never seems to admit ur mistakes

insist on saying stuff that contradicts ur own conscience

which i despises

die also dunwan to admit

makes me wanna hit u on the head

nail her

its like watching soap opera

and shes like the evil mother in law

bullying people but always gets away with it

and when she gets it

its like finally theres retribution

that kinda feeling